what evs...

dude. i think i forgot i had a blog. it has been well over a year since i posted anything here. funny that i come here now....i just felt like writing and remembered...i already have a blog!!

well fucking hell a lot has happened in the past year and handful of months....two burning mans, one boyfriend come and gone, moving three times, couple of acting classes, another visit from my mom, sis and niece, an Spiritquest ayahuasca journey to the Peruvian Amazon.....nutshell....so i'm not gonna try and make up for lost time by reliving it all in one post. a lot of good and bad stuff, so i feel balanced i suppose. i still am on a constant search to find my identity, as i was when i began this blog all the way back in Los Angeles. I now live again in San Francisco, with my cat Roscoe and roommate Howie (she is born one day after me in the same year, and we've had strangely parallel lives). but that might be a whole other post as well.

actually i'm not so sure how i feel about the whole blogging thing. i mean i read a lot of peoples blogs, but i realize i'm putting out there my most personal thoughts and feelings to everyone. but who cares i guess. people have much less privacy these days thanks to technology. we think it's making our lives so much easier, but we are actually giving up much of our personal rights for freedom. the idea of having a chip installed under our skin scares me....but it's not so far off.

lately my reading, research and thoughts have been much about what's happening to our universe. certainly i was coming to this on my own, but the trip to Peru really set it all in fast motion. i've been reading up about 2012 and the mayan calendar and watching lots of videos on you tube on this subject. also currently reading Daniel Pinchbeck's book, which drew me in at first....but in the middle it's getting a little muddy. i heard he was giving some talks at burning man this year, but i wasn't able to catch any or meet him. he has written a book previous to this called 'breaking open the head', which i wish i read first....i have been told it is better.

time is weird right now. it's seems to be going by so freaking fast, yet at the same time standing still. how can this be? this is my pondering for the week.